its been almost a year, since ive posted here........... predictably, recovery was forced upon me
however, i enjoyed not one second of it, i didnt have the will to get better, and the more help they tried to give me, the more i pushed it all away
and so, now, im back, and christ its hard - coming back to this community is honestly thrilling, but at the same time, daunting as hell.... im not even sure what im doing back here, in all truth i think its not so much to help myself, because i know i can do it, but to help all of you - i want to share, well, everything i can with all of you
i really have missed you all

the stats, however, are shocking:
hw: 132
cw: 123
lw: 100
ugw: ......anything between 80 and 90 would be nice

well really, thats it, im sorry to have gone on like that, but it feels good to let it out, to type, to be a part of this community, to do it all over again
you all need to know that you're amazing, and id like to think that i can help some of you realize that....... if not, well you can tell me to fuck off (: hah either way, its crazy, but im back

my stats have changed, thank god, since my last post.
so im no longer a massive 116 (:
but im still massive,
no doubt about that.
but it's thanks to you guys that im getting there.

and www.myspace.com/skinnyeleven,

mhm k.

eleven.-@hotmail. com

email me there k twiglets?

stay strong, be bony, think thinner.

Age: 14
Height: 5'4"
Current weight: 116
Highest weight: 123
Lowest weight: 101
Goal weight: 100
Goal weight 2: 92
Fav food: food destroys everything,
Fav drink: coffee
Fav exercise: my ballet classes and pilates,
Where do you slip up: when i think i deserve to eat something small - and then i binge,
When did it start: halfway through 2007,
Why did it start: not too sure, just found the strength to starve myself,
Does anyone know: no one,
Diet pills: not yet,
Fav binge food: anything in sight when the urge comes along,
How many cals a day?: at the moment, 1000. then 700. then 500. i've got a system going, since my huge slip up.
What do you see when you look in the mirror?: whatever i saw makes me want to throw up.
Areyou in a r/ship? who'd want me?
Are you the thin one or fat one of your friends? : used to be thin - binging is slowly ruining that.
Are you depressed?: yes,
Do you self-harrm?: yes,
Ever tried to commit suicide: no,
Ever been to a psychologist?: yes, fuck them allllllllllllll.

hiiiiiiiiiiiii babes,
i starved for 2 weeks-
and binged like you have no fucking idea today,
please tell me you know what that feels like?
i feel so alone,
and im so happy i came across you twiglets.
i need thinspiration to help me back down to the safe weight of 100.
from then downwards i can do it (:

if and when you need to talk like a sick anorexia patient,
im thief and i can listen (: